You never know wat you will get

I ve been really behind and in work dats piling jus screwed up test on the french revolution this wk and a maths test on poisson distribution how great last wk i did ok for the test , in a months time i will be taking my mid yr, how great cos most ppl will have it after the june holis and i desperately running out of time honestly been feelin insecure ..dat means i will have to mae time even on saturdays which i use to relax..anyway on my way home after tuition i accompanied michael to ps b4 returning home and in the short distance of walk met 2 old frens both shaved and in ns but both of diff outcome...1st it was nigel who after sec sch left 4 cjc and did well and got accepted imto ntu business sch and a pending interview from smu and nus he kind of gave me some encouragement and noes my current pathetic shit im in even though i haven seen him for like a year den it was ryan from aj who is retaking his Aces , we use to be really quite close but the serious tone he gave me sounded so distant and it seems like i never knew him..i guess its part of life we got to let go and move on....he got together wif someone he has always been eyeing on haha..anway someone thinks im really gay, no comments but u judge for urself.. yea

my mum has been really stressing me alot and i trying hard not to sigh

i tried to perfect....

Hey dad look at me
Think back and talk to me
Did I grow up according to plan?
And do you think I'm wasting my time doing things I wanna do?
But it hurts when you disapprove all along

And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't pretend that
I'm alright
And you can't change me

'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect

Been tired stressed distracted and a feeling of helplessness....tried composing a song abt life but as usual i din complete and my my guitar string broke even though i haven been touched for some time found some gd classical tabs ....will be missing a great buffet feast tmr at apollo hotel with my maternal cousins and relatives ..currently listening x japans kurenai which bring me back some fond memories..anyways im kind of vexed over nothin and jus feel like doin some exercise sigh!!Im blogging crap


The sun dropped the sky it made us fall on our faces again.......