You never know wat you will get

Ok this holiday been 1 stayed at home the most of the time....i guess aj will be history for me...i m not optimistic for the 1st time in my life abt my life next year...i wanna get control academically .....I like the cold weather lately shiok man.... ive come up wif many decisions lately i guess which i hope will turn out good...


bye...

Got really freaking depressed and freaking freaked out yesterday doing some online psychological test i ripped off somewhere....it proved to be quite accurate although i usually am quite skeptical it really kind of left me thinking.....Anyway i still need peace alone..i still haven decided weather i would be turning up for the christmas gatherings with the various ppl..i guess im not dat strong after all....i still cant get some things out of my head but im glad at least night strolls help me clear some thoughts....i got back to my sec sch after lunch yesterday..i haven actually stepped in 4 ages at least more den a year or 2... and i realise they still have the same bloody vball coach but the change is dat they are training indoors now in the hall, there were quite a significant no of players but anyway i dun associate myself with gms vball after quitting at the start of sec 3 with my entire batch, dats a bloody long time ago, jing hui and boon seng my 2 juniors were training hard, guess ivp is round the corner ...sweet memories filled me but i couldnt even rmb any bitter ones cos there wasnt den in my sec days...

Here something i wanna share ir u r feeling depressed or f *up brisk walking seriously helps cos it has actually been proven by psychologist or wateva.....

I jus so crappy tonight...lolx

At this particular time you are feeling the results of extreme stress and you are seeking a 'way out' but you are pushing too hard. Obviously you need peace, tranquillity and contentment. Your temperament is such that you are hoping, unrealistically perhaps, that your desires will shortly be fulfilled (even if at this time you are not quite sure what those true aspirations may be!).

You are working extremely hard trying to improve your image in the eyes of others. You are looking for acknowledgement from your peers and those who come into your sphere of influence. You want to be liked, not for what people think of you but for what you really are.

You are a dreamer and you seek perfection in any relationship that you may establish. Some of your ideas and standards are over the top so it may be a good idea to review your perception of life and accept people for what they are - not for what you would like them to be.

You are feeling trapped by the situation as it stands at this time and what is more, you feel powerless to remedy it. You are stressful, angry and disgruntled. You feel that everything that you try to do to change the situation is thwarted and your hopes and aspirations all seem to be receding into the ever distant future. You have reached the state where you now doubt whether your dreams will ever be achieved and this is not only causing mental stress but heartache. You need to get away from it all - you need to have time to think, to recuperate, to be able to make your own decisions.

You wish to be left in peace... no more conflict and no more differences of opinion. In fact you just don't want to be involved in arguments of any shape or form. All you want is for 'them' to get on with it - and to leave you alone.

Ok i finally woke up b4 11pm this holiday cos ive actually improve from 4pm to 830am today... anyway jus wished 1 of my best pals yh who is going to tekong today!!wohoo!! I simply cannot imagine how some my pals who are going to soldiers, my turn will come... I know a handful of you guys out there are to tekong this week gd luck guys!!...My brother has been telling me how scared the recruits are and all the stupid stories and how he deals with them.... goodness.. Dad finally recovered while ive been freaking down with cough and flu, but at least my mood has been better.....o and bon voyage to the aj vball guys have fun man!!..life goes on....

Rushed my dad to NUH last night, he was supposed to be admited yesterday night but he just went home for observation but anyway when i got there i saw the most ironic thing, the indian fully dressed in green even with a green mask directing patients had a fractured arm and he was directing this little boy to the room who fractured his arm, wth.....dad was in pain and usually for cases that were not life threatening you can actually wait up to 1 to 2 hours but thankfully he was attended to shortly...O there was dis guy on the wheel chair covered with wounds all over his body his jeans were torn and there were cuts here and their, but he remained quite calm...Ok heres another guy who apparently got that pissed with the indian mentioned for not attending to his friend fast, he was like on the verge of beating the already injured poor man..i seriously dont know whether to laugh or cry, and another ironic thing is dat jus on the wall was article dat says man jailed 3 weeks for hitting doc....I think dads gonna be fine....all i want for christmas is simply things to run smoothly for the rest of the year and hopefully my break through next year....

I m hanging on .....