You never know wat you will get

Im in repair

2009-05-12T04:06:00.000-07:00

Stood on the corner for a while
To wait for the wind to blow down on me
Hoping it takes with it my old ways
And brings some brand new look upon me
Oh it's taking so long i could be wrong, i could be ready
Oh but if i take my heart's advice
I should assume it's still unsteady
I am in repair, i am in repair ........

Life is like a cobweb, not an organization chart.

2009-05-03T10:04:00.001-07:00

Its been ages since i last blogged and in fact i had wanted to start blogging since i ORDed in Nov,my work at Harrys, my trip in japan, my cousins wedding events of the end of 2008, my dive trips last mth, the amount of toothpaste i used yesterday morning and so on and so forth, but somehow, it just did not materialise.Well i guess one thing about blogging is that u really start blogging when there is nothing much to blog about, dats the irony of this entry at least and im not sure if u are probably thinking what is wrong with me in case anyone out there reads this in front of his or her screen. Anyway, work today was pretty quiet, caught liverpool and newcastle play, a total one sided game and i feel a piy dat newcastle is probably going to be renergated by the end of the season,i could see the disappointment from the face of Steve, hes from newcastle btw. Im jus so intrigued by the fact the English are so hardcore supporters of their clubs where its located and i can never forget the screenings of a little boy so terrible upset once when hes team lost, all dressed in his team jersey and his scarf over his neck, face all red in tears, so upset dat he kept on crying and banging on the railings and afert a while jus had his face in his hands. Man i just love watching soccer, the excitement, the glory, and all the unproductive table talk on players and the whole saga.

Well as u can see, the irony is proving its point and its been a more routine 2 wks of life, sch and home. Accounting managerial test on sat, vball at TJC and a short mj session at tampines followed by drinking at Carl's new condo at Farrer Park. Anyway in case u are curious, the highest percentage of alcohol content in Singapore for beer is not 11.8%, i ve found A belgian beer thats 12.2% percent called Dam burger, anyone out there do update me if theres sumthing stronger, im just curious.Thankfully, its alot easier to swallow compared to Amsterdam and tasted pretty decent and in my own personal opinion better than Barrons strong brew. Im sounding like a drunkard though i dun drink dat often lol.

Had sciccors cut curry rice which operated till 330am, remembered dining there with dad years back.

I ve been becoming really homely these days, more routinous and life seems to be becoming more like an organization chart, something which often does not usually happen in mine. Really in a musical mood, would have posted a video of me ruining a piece on the piano now if i had a video cam now and if its not 1:49am.

Well, its an accomplishment having an entry after more than 1 year 4 mths of this blog in hibernation i wonder if any1 would even chanced upon this...haha..

2008-01-03T09:46:00.000-08:00

Spirited away...

2008-01-02T06:25:00.000-08:00

Whats it like to turn at every corner and see the same thing??

31 dec

2007-12-31T04:27:00.000-08:00

Its the last day of the year... !But I think im going crazy ...

new blog in the old year

2007-12-28T09:09:00.000-08:00

well thanks to Becca ive got a new blogskin all done by her and for that maybe ill be her bestman if she marries Wayniq one day lol. Anyway ive actually lots of stuff in my head which is inconvinient for me to put it down here so i guess ill be bloggin mundane crap like how many knots i made on my shoe lace or how much tooth paste i used this morning..lol. vball training at punggol was not good, firstly its was in a God forsaken place and i was complained of using too much force today from coach, something which Cheong Hoe later voiced to me was unsubstantial and obviously coach was in a bad mood and his poor B div boys got it from him..I dun really give a damm of vball like i use to do back in jc just in case u guys out dere still feel i singlet inside me that says Im a vball fanactic..haha

i hope this entry will warm things up.

rookie of the year-blue roses

2007-05-20T09:34:00.000-07:00

Tough times dun last tough ppl do..

2007-02-09T17:26:00.000-08:00

Well im finally home again and this has been only by 2nd day home in a month stay in pulau tekong, sigh!! and ill be booking in early at 1830 and going for another 3 days into the god forsaken vegetation after jus returning from a 6 day field camp 2 days ago..Really looking forward to the long cny break... Welfare in army has been decent and there wasnt much physical training in the 1st 2 weeks cos we are suppose to learn how to be a soldier 1st and we spend a lot of time waiting for things to happen, not very gd organisation pewrhaps l that i think i probably more input than output then, as for the last wk it was more output than input cos combat ration sux and it wasnt pleasant sleeping in rocks and having have to hug a rifle...

Everyone in camp seems to sick and im finally down after the being the last man surviving in my section, got to endure...But on the other hand some trainings are just overated but i shall elaborate on that..

Going down to ya kun to get some decent breakfast and then do my much dreaded packing..
take care peeps..

2006-12-21T07:01:00.000-08:00

What if you dig
Way down deeper than your simple-minded friends
What if you dig?
What if you find
A thousand more unanswered questions down inside
That's all you find?

What if you pick apart the logic
And begin to poke the holes
What if the crown of thorns is no more
Than folklore that must be told and retold?

You've been running as fast as you can
You've been looking for a place you can land for so long
But what if you?re wrong?

2006-12-18T06:47:00.000-08:00

Christmas is round the corner and yeap i have been taking advantage of the christmas sales...I ve been working in a pub and its pretty ok i guess cos i don really have much to do at home and i just do not have the feeling of nothing to do but at least a short trip to genting and christmas to look forward to.. Been feeling slightly melancholnic probably due to the festive season as i begin to remininise, i do like this feeling when its not intense cos somehow it makes me feel more human ...

Some people just wanna hold on to mermories, every single bit od dem, be it happy or sad, they go to the extend of keeping everything big or small . pieces of receipt stuck in their wallets diaries amd all the shit..For me i think ive learnt to let go easly and i prefer creating memories worth big enuff jus to keep in my mind..well each to his own...

Down on my head...

2006-12-13T07:55:00.000-08:00

Well thank God ive been better today and in the mist of recuperation, been really sick and down on my head and was running a temperature of 37.9 and some infection down somewhere God knows where i my intestine..i was so down i couldnt even walk properly and for a moment i thought i was gonna black out and on top of that my blood pressure was dropping a bit too low, got scolded by the doc for being too weak for someone my age, my parents nagging for not caring my health with care which somehow spilled over to some long lost old bad habits, it was simply a disater and i couldnt rmb the last time i feel so ill though i know my health has seriously been on the downhill, i guess it is time i get some hard and serious rest before i go kick has asses in tekong or rather get kicked in the ass a month later. Speaking of asses both sides of mine still feels a numb after be puctured by two jabs on mon and tues and according to the doc i was so weak my butt was so flat it couldnt even move when the needle went right in , and o yes i din feel anything taking the 1st one. Hopefully ill recover soon ....

2006-12-05T18:37:00.000-08:00

I have nothing to do nowadays i want to rock and roll like this....

2006-12-05T06:40:00.000-08:00

sum times i jus feel like rock and roll like this ....i mean i feel jaded even during my holidays..

2006-12-03T09:15:00.000-08:00

Just in case you are sick of teletubies and feeling bored heres some japanese men for ya ..hehe

Down on my head..

2006-11-28T07:29:00.000-08:00

Coughs drops will small yellow pills really can bring down even elephants let alone me, i can practically sleep for 24 hours...

You've got this new head filled up with smokeI've got my veins all tangled close

lost without wings..

2006-11-27T08:45:00.000-08:00

Sometimes i feel so pent up i feel im gonna expode ....
The wings i feel i use to have over my back seems to feel numb and falling a part...i seem to be hingin on my facade..
Mayybe its PED not price elasticity of demand but rather post examz depression but still i doubt so..Anyway heres a little thing to share, if u are depressed brisk walking has been proven to the best cure for it, i dunch know how true it is but at least it worked on me before..

Anyway it sux to know u are being dealt with and falling into the same tricks quotes verses and the shit , the very same its been used on others that u simply trip over everything they say...Its the same old lies, why cant there be something new...

O did anyone tell u ur noes will grow longer when you lie..Im sure everyone knows that..
I can feel something inside me sayI really don't think you're strong enough, no

2006-11-26T08:14:00.000-08:00

well i have been trying to get back into the habit of blogging again ironically there seriously isnt much to blog .. crap .. life seem to really be boring and i wonder those days of euporia were ever return.. some how i think i going thru a bit of a transition inside me i dun really understand..the last stage of puberty..ahha many people told me my voice changed well it doesnt really bother me too much though.. been proud of myself after completing a complte route from upp bt timah all the waY backto holland v on a injured tigh and ankle dun ask me why i did dat. its kind of stupid and probably typical of me..

To be honest i ve been really disappointed on how the holiday has been going.. I dun expect much though maybe i haven really got into the mood yet and am shoping a bit too much..

The thing i would like really to do is to reall bulid up my fitness and look finally im looking forward to ns again something i guess many will dread ahha..

This is my december this is my time of the year...

back

2006-11-24T17:42:00.000-08:00

Well its been a long time since i blogged...The As are finally over and i haven been doing much other than lazing ard.isnt that what im supposed to do.. life this year has been slower the last year probably because there arent any other commitments like cca and all the other shit...O i recieved feedback on people wanting to know who that girl on my blog is .. its all up to you guys out there to imagine..

Ive been shopping ard like an idiot haha and the best part is i din buy anything ..just do not understand how some people are crazy over this sport....

The next thing i thing i got to buck up is my fitness cos i haven been exercising haha and volleyball training back in aj now is taking a toll on my legs and i wasted packets salonpas on them and my shoulders feels so hard i feel like i been lifting weights..untypical of me

i goona spend the next few days learning how to master cup cakes from grandma anyone wans to volunteer to try.. No gurantees and insurance for food poisoning..ill try my best to make sure they dun taste like my shoulders...

o To all long lost frens im super free now and pls do look up for me again yea..miss everyone

ive tried for hours and so, you leave me no where to go..

2006-11-15T18:12:00.000-08:00

The longest 5 days of my life.....

2006-10-28T20:32:00.001-07:00

Ill Be Back
.....................................

My poster girl for animal conservation

2006-09-08T09:40:00.000-07:00

Well, somebody here is intending to get herself famous by putting a picture of herself here taken with her oil painting, and because she suppose to share half of her 1000 dollar or watever amt of money she wins... Hence, I have agreed to violate the rules as the owner of this blog to sacrifice this posting for the cause of her publicity... For advertising space like this pls tag to contact the publisher... Postings are valued 500USD to 10000USD each depending on the magnitude of atrocity...

Similar yet different...

2006-08-31T09:38:00.000-07:00

EOS across sports :)...

2006-08-28T19:46:00.000-07:00

Does this look like some1 you know.....

2006-08-22T09:52:00.000-07:00

Ive actually tried to blog a few times but just do not know wat i wanna write..Anyway i just wanna tell ppl out there who i have bot been seen for sum time they r beiing missed..im currently lisitening to jay chou and realised it has been years since i last listened to chinese songs reminded of ppl in pjc yea..Anyways thanks to hannah , or rather the nus freshmen orientation goody bag for the science students i got a 1 month trail at california fitness. After months without propoer decent exercise and a full day of chionging at the gym with pilates, intro step and some some abt lessons , my muscles have really tight....o cant believed i bumped into gimson 3 times in 2 weeks and the ironic thing is that all 3 times b4 or after service ...Caught the 1st man u game at Holland v and the red devils nailed it witha 5-1 win alright man..ok thats all folks , me blogging for the sake of it haha..take care every1 for now...

2006-07-31T19:34:00.000-07:00

Its Augusts and times really fly another year will be gone and very soon ill be in the army, honestly im looking forward to that and was listening to Jordon talk on his life as a commando, it inspires me. My medical last wk was ok and in the pes A category and it quite good to know that my basic health level is ok but currently again under the flu bug and coughing quite badly, theres history mock exam this sat again on European history and i really hope to get some decent grades , did nj sea paper for mock last sat and i think it was just fair, hope to get at least a grade C, i mean grades are everything to every1 at this point in time when your 1st A level paper is 92 days away and im not even in a jc anymore....There has been nothing much to blog recently and i blogging now cause im really bored in the sch library before going for chapel later where i probably take a short nap and look as if im praying haha..

2006-07-16T23:58:00.000-07:00

Well my hair seems to look worst than that of Paul Twohill nowadays and to be honest i really feel like shaving my head which means i would probably maintain that hairstlye for the next maybe 8 months or more since i would have to shave during ns ...ive been down will a irritating flu that jus dun seem to go away....anyway any ajcians out there would mind letting me take a look at their mid year papers??

I had my soccer match on on sun , can you believe my very 1st debut , pretty decent ....man i need to work out.....

For once

2006-07-12T19:37:00.000-07:00

For once i thought exercising is needed to stay fit
For once i was in the same old pt attire jogging
For once i felt the i felt like pulling 2 of myself on the pull-up bar
For once i patted a coughing cat
For once i met my primary sch english teacher
For once i played classical music
For once trance appealed to me
For once i was dying to play soccer like never before
For once i wondered about supernaturals
For once i hoped time could reverse or fast forward
For once i felt forlorn
For once i thought for once

FIFA world cup

2006-07-10T08:50:00.000-07:00

France Italy France Anniliated how true hehe

World cup fever

2006-07-04T19:00:00.000-07:00

Been catching many of the world cup games and seriously been enjoying all the drama and proud to say my predictions so esp in the 2nd round had been 90 percent anyway last nights game was g8t cos i me and alan won abit, if only he had listen to me we will have won at least one can of moonlight ablone to share but never mind we can still now settle for 4 bk meals for playin safer, despite tryin hard not to gamble i still gave in to 3 matches not bad considering dere will b e a total of 64 games... Anyway i think wat christiano Ronaldo did was really exaggerating and i believe Rooney should be blamed for his determination and tryin to hold on to the ball, he was unlucky to be an English facing an Argentinian referee... i Really applaud the italians for their victory 2 goals in the injury time of extra time cheers!!

Ive been home and the A levels are like in last then 119 days dat is crap man, met up wif old pals on sat 1st wif 1st 3 mths 38 for some reason i felt really tired on dat day due to insufficient sleep , i simply felt drunk but later met up wif carl and some sec peeps for the England game, apparently carl has won 20k but lost 10k back in 3 weeks still he has become to rich soldier longerthe poor student which im still stuck in.. Speaking of soldiers ill be going for medical on the 28 of july which happens to be the very 1st day of WW1 92 years ago, how happening is that, at least i hope i dun have to fight a war hehe....

2006-06-06T09:47:00.000-07:00

fill me up
Derss nothing to blog and dats annoying.....o would some1 tell me wats so bad or unlucky in 060606??

2006-05-31T09:12:00.000-07:00

Its all empty inside me....if only i mattered...

2006-05-28T07:42:00.000-07:00

Something new perhaps...

U noe wat i mean....well it time for things to be renewed enlightened ..anyway its relationships with friends, piorities on work, family everything too much...Well sometime i feel i feel like everything is drying up and i ask why, perhaps i think new things will change the way things are..

One doesn't discover new lands without consenting
to lose sight of the shore for a very long time.

2006-05-24T08:15:00.000-07:00

Darkness is alluring.....

I look at the sky it was in complete darkness without even a ray of light from any stars dat seem to have all been covered up...isnt darkness beautiful..dats oso why satan was projected 1st as women in the passion of the christ..anyway speaking of the devil i tink hes been doin a g8t job on me if he really does rule over this and if u do believe he exists...

Lets compare scars and ill tell u hus is worst...

2006-05-21T08:15:00.000-07:00

The pleasure of being sad

Im daamm freakin bored sigh!!.........some1 kill me pls ....

Adam's Song-blink 182

I never thought I'd die alone

I laughed the loudest who'd have known?

I trace the cord back to the wall

No wonder it was never plugged in at all

I took my time, I hurried up

The choice was mine I didn't think enough

I'm too depressed to go on

You'll be sorry when I'm gone

I never conquered, rarely came

16 just held such better days

Days when I still felt alive

We couldn't wait to get outside

The world was wide, too late to try

The tour was over I'd survived

2006-05-20T09:43:00.000-07:00

help!!...

2006-05-19T07:28:00.000-07:00

Never left my heart.......

I jus wanna let all of u guys dere in aj dat u ppl neva ever left my heart.. always on my mind..Anyway i went down to watch the basketball finals to watch aj vs hci ..aj lost but did well..i would really like aplogise for not turning up on wed for the aj vball finals cos i had exams and 4get to d time and wen i did find out my mum wun allow me out.. crap..i din get to c aj vball win d finals..haiya dun really matter after all does it?? Anyway it was g8t seein ppl i neva saw for like 4 months...i realised i did noe quite alot of ppl dinner wif some 38ters saw myself crappin like i aways use to do haha..anyway hist today was really taxing 3 hours of non-stop writing and i guess i at least used up 12 or 13 pieces of paper probaby more ful of crap and my hands realy sore after dat cos yesterday econs oso saw me writin essay for 2 hrs 15 min at least ..crap..
i have something to announce is dat im single and how hard was i explain myself even frens online not in aj qns me ..hai!! wats is wrong man!!

Leavin home felt abit melancholnic but i was quite ok , and met hock now in ns frm badminton in aj last time and he commented i might c him again in 10 yrs..hmmm it sounds rader logical and realistic abt frens...but leaving is part of life and jus learnt of sin hui deaparting for aussie soon & she actually saw me at hans d oder day but din say hi.. haiyo..

im swinging life away......

2006-05-13T08:25:00.000-07:00

THAT ONE PARTICULAR DAY.

first: CHOCOLATE FONDUE at clarke quay's haagen dazs. it was simply and awfully heavenly.

second: what was left after we were done with our "little piece of heaven". haha.

third: tha point is not ma hair or head. but tha 2 pple who were complaining NON-STOP bout tha service, food and blahblahblah. only tha lady, actually. haha.
"why did they put so much strawberry syrup in yer drink this time? it was not as much tha last time."
"they ought to ask fer tha individual customer's preference and not impose other's views onto yer drink."
"i asked fer roasted almonds and they gave me flakes!"
[you get ma drift.] but it was hilarious listening (not that i normally eavesdrop, it jus so happened to be louder. haha.)

hey, thanks for ytd. it was really fun. altho' there were really sian moments when i wished i cld jus vanish into thin air or sleep [like at tha train station], i enjoyed maself thoroughly. i know you did too. lets do it again sometime. (:

xXx,
manda.

the incoherent few lines.

2006-05-11T08:52:00.000-07:00

THE INCOHERENT FEW LINES.
start of mid years! had gp and chinese today. gp was average but chinese was simply jus bad. lets not think bout it, its over anw. we're all feeling tha pressure from whatever stares blankly at us when we face our textbooks in utmost awe, wonder and disgust [of how we did not get down to it earlier]. stress is now an understatement. and there is no longer a word that cld describe this agony we face.

ive not studied fer like 3 weeks and 4 days alr! [its 3 mins to 5 days.] cant seem to kick tha addictive habit of procrastinating. ugh!

smth i ripped outta ma blog:
"in this world where its primary nature is to be capricious, no one can predict whats gonna happen next. or if you think of it in a morbid sense, when you're going to die. but one thing seems definite - relationships. these are treasures that moths cannot destroy, that when built on a firm foundation of trust, even an earthquake of magnitude eight cannot demolish. its untouchable and the only possible way of abolishing it, is to ruthlessly tear it apart with your own two hands. i too, seem to be able to do it subconsciously. and i assure you that its no fun at all."

snippets: figment of vivid images still appears in ma mind now and then, and it always ends with a tear, with a reminder that certain individuals are now gone, maybe fer a moment, or most probably - forever. however, i still cling onto that faint hope - a hope that a miracle will happen.

hey! study hard. play hard[er.]

this entry is posted by MANDA. (:

2006-05-07T21:40:00.000-07:00

Tired of being tired....

yawns.....Cheers to Low thia kiang and chiam see tong its really disappointing dat wp lost at Aljunied though the results were pretty gd wif 44% in favour and a shame to PM Lee who merely lost 35% to a bunch of newbies at amk....wait till its my turn to vote , its really boring to see no 1 contestin yr after yr at my GRC with PAP declaring victory on every other nomination day...The oppostion the whole has done well and i really hope dis serves a alarm to the PAP who only finally realised dat that Gomez campaign has been pissin ppl off towards the end of the 9 days and also the failed attempt to threaten ppl in the opposition smcs on upgradin , same old lousy weapon , on the oder hand touchin to know dat ppl in Hougang and potong pasir dun buy dat and give, it shows dat some singaporeans are after all not dat always dat money-faced... cheers to dat!!

O ya ppl at 82 i feel ought to retire and enjoy life and look after their grand children...

I seriously do not know me wat got into me lately....

distracted...

wat is meant to be will eventually be a mermory of time.....

2006-05-05T09:09:00.000-07:00

The faded facade

Its the very same old familiar faces i met today , i met many ppl today, ppl who marked diff phases of my life frm sec to jc and oso the present and dat same smile which never fails to make my heart melt in the instance. and its the same old familiar game watchin vball at ccab recallin how i use to accept victory only and defeat was ever so bitter..despite being the defeat aj still qualifies i realise i really din matter to me whether my heart was dere , the dust has settled and to be honest sometimes it feels really heart-breaking but ill contented to jus sight frm the distance..in fact i jus came back frm K.A.P after dinner wif the np vball team after havig a casual game dere enjoyed myself after displaying my mizuno shoes for such a long time and my juniors or the contrary all fired wif passion..Anyway it was d long talk on the politics of vball which is really messy cos theres endless to talk abt as well as experiences shared wen players unite but it jus made me realise how into i really was as of now i din matter but it gd to discuss all this things i really enjoy in the past...

These few days has made me rather sentimental or emo i jus nd to pick up dat courage...

You make me wanna brave....

2006-05-04T08:42:00.000-07:00

I tried to be perfect again

Today , a dilemma and prayer been answered a decision made though in not a idealistic or rather a excruciatin and rather hurtin fashion....despite promising myself i wil let myself experience the same old feelins it kind of hit me a little today..thank god ive gone thru something or rather things so much worst though never dealt in the same way ..perhaps im to blame but i wun be sorry for helpin in fact rather determined esp wen i do care...Tmrs a day i would be lookin forward to going down to support aj vball against tj..heard dat the gers are out disappointed but dats still hope in the guys to win...
a fading facade- a fear revived

Coldplay-Low
You see the world in black and white
No colour or light
You think you'll never get it right
But you know you might

The sky could fall could fall on me
The parting of the seas
But you mean more mean more to me
Than any colour I can see

All you ever wanted was love
But you never looked hard enough
It's never good at giving itself up
All you ever wanted to be
Living in perfect symmetry
Nothing is as down on this Earth as us

2006-05-02T20:07:00.000-07:00

Tear me off a piece of blanket

Been really distracted and dat feelin disgust me esp wen i have a big pile of work waiting for me..if u ask me d reason the thing is i ve been thinking a bit too much maybe dats the prob..thank god i manda was dere to crap hehe...anways ive been watching news v often on news and to be honest i really sick of the Gomez scandal i after another the ministers go after him and dere goes half of the election news how great and im sure im gonna get the same crap in the next few days.... attended a Wp rally at hougang after visitin grandma and realise i haven been ard for a v long time i could even notice a big change in my cousins who are in the jcs..how time flies and its may already...been blastin music in my ears and i probably goin deaf v soon ...currently listenin to a song by rise against called paperwings think its really gd..

paperwings

One last thing I beg you please just before you goI've watched you fly on paper wings halfway around the worldUntil they burned up in the atmosphere and sent you spiraling downlanding somewhere far from here with no one else aroundto catch you falling downand I'm looking at you now

2006-04-22T07:50:00.000-07:00

Im screwed

I ve been really behind and in work dats piling jus screwed up test on the french revolution this wk and a maths test on poisson distribution how great last wk i did ok for the test , in a months time i will be taking my mid yr, how great cos most ppl will have it after the june holis and i desperately running out of time honestly been feelin insecure ..dat means i will have to mae time even on saturdays which i use to relax..anyway on my way home after tuition i accompanied michael to ps b4 returning home and in the short distance of walk met 2 old frens both shaved and in ns but both of diff outcome...1st it was nigel who after sec sch left 4 cjc and did well and got accepted imto ntu business sch and a pending interview from smu and nus he kind of gave me some encouragement and noes my current pathetic shit im in even though i haven seen him for like a year den it was ryan from aj who is retaking his Aces , we use to be really quite close but the serious tone he gave me sounded so distant and it seems like i never knew him..i guess its part of life we got to let go and move on....he got together wif someone he has always been eyeing on haha..anway someone thinks im really gay, no comments but u judge for urself.. yea

my mum has been really stressing me alot and i trying hard not to sigh

i tried to perfect....

Hey dad look at me
Think back and talk to me
Did I grow up according to plan?
And do you think I'm wasting my time doing things I wanna do?
But it hurts when you disapprove all along

And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't pretend that
I'm alright
And you can't change me

'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect

2006-04-14T09:17:00.000-07:00

The sky dropped the sun

Been tired stressed distracted and a feeling of helplessness....tried composing a song abt life but as usual i din complete and my my guitar string broke even though i haven been touched for some time found some gd classical tabs ....will be missing a great buffet feast tmr at apollo hotel with my maternal cousins and relatives ..currently listening x japans kurenai which bring me back some fond memories..anyways im kind of vexed over nothin and jus feel like doin some exercise sigh!!Im blogging crap

The sun dropped the sky it made us fall on our faces again.......

2006-03-27T17:54:00.000-08:00

1 life live it

Turning 19 didint really mean much to me in fact i couldnt really be bothered with it till i was reminded, anyway just wanna thank those who remembered ....Heres somethin i wanna share with u peeps out dere ..imagine u got were crossing the road 1 day and suddenly a close kin of urs dash pass and saved you and in the process got killed..imagine u were on a airplane with 500 passengers and u were the only sole survivor....imagine 20 million dying for you...the point i wanna bring across is that is to cherish ur life becos the the person whom 20 million died for is you because 20 million sperms died to have you created....think abt this....I heard this from some1 last wk and although this was my 2nd time hearing it i think its really meaningful and set me thinking...If you ask me whether i have been living my life out, i currently i dunch noe but think i ve been doing so most of my time , at least i hope....

Anyway i have a question wondering any1 can which i hope someone will give me a answer ...If im not wrong the usa should be in the commonwealth like Canada but why isnt the usa in the commonwealth games...Was the US ever colonised but the British?

Lastlty prediction by world soccer analyst cheng yao that Barcelona will win the champions league ....hehe

2006-03-12T07:04:00.000-08:00

The holis are finally here .....too short to call a holiday but rather a study break ....i probably be camping in the jurong east library or somehing....receive some gd news dat the vballers of my batch would all probably squeeze into the uni after their NS though ..really happy to hear dat...I jus rejected playin youth cup vball alumni for obvious reasons....nothig particularly interesting this week oh except seeing some1 make soya milk at tiong bahru market till 11 plus i think 1 cup of soya milk defintely worths more than 80 cents from all the hard work....

gonna turn in soon....yawn...

2006-02-27T17:18:00.000-08:00

Judgement day

Tmrs the A level results will be released i feel excited for all those who will be gettin their results of the major exam of their entire life just hope all will do well ....im really sure ppl in 2804 will do really well from the way i experienced the way they work.....anyway our ex nj tennis star is sick today so i probably pay him a visit with varjeet or something later after sch...Time really flies and its and March is charging towards us which means ill be turnin 19 crap......For once i feel kind of old ..sigh!!

sure thing falling

Do you remember how we used to get so high It didn't work at first we tried it two more times And we could breathe the windows down I was thinking of the temperature outside Cool like the water that was running from our eyes And we could breathe the windows down It's a new place that we have found ..nice lyrics from yellowcard...

2006-02-26T21:06:00.000-08:00

Grey skies clouding up the things we use to see

some1 complained abt me stopping to blog so here i am with another entry abt my montonous drowsy life.....

FRi...3 tests in a row 1st starting wif 1 on SEA nationalism gp essay den maths headed back to Aj for a friendly game for 10 sets of vball...till 11pm heard of justins who tore his ligament ..i really feel sad abt it cos its his last year and we wun be playin man it really heart breaking...the guys played pretty well and i ve faith that they will be win this year...After the game the blues and greys hit me real hard and kind of msg Ian how i felt and i was told to think of how i was to be a blessing to new ppl in my new life..i haven been able to find that feeling ppl completely rocked my life like i rocked theirs but still i moving on strong , at least wat i think...

Sat ... felt quite moody mus be due to poor slp esp after tuition but hanged on....

sun..chiong maths at Lin si house and downloaded some music was did econs was really a fruitful day ...caught up with Aileen abit and i think every1 is doing great and thats really nice to hear..

2006-02-07T19:05:00.000-08:00

Hello there the angel from my nightmare......

I haven been sleeping well these days but i guess its been improving, developing eye bags but anyway this is my 1st entry of the year haha and just in case you are wondering im alive .....Live seems to be rather different this year with so much lesser people in life.....i guess u guys in aj are doing great and i still love you ppl, too many ppl i miss .....Despite not having the days where i laugh my heads off everyday with u bubbly pals but i think it isnt that bad after all with more peace ive got....i haven been exercising and thats feeling a bit out of place maybe i probably have a game of tennis wif nj on fri or maybe i might head down to np to meet wkian b4 heading to aj for vball or ill catch fearless on fri so im looking forward to this weekend...o anyones got the fort minor album can lend me .....o jus in case u are wondering im in my sch library slacking.....nothing interesting to blog abt actually and happy belated cny to all....

Jus to add on: qixiang i jus did something ill update more later, just to lazy to type i haven seen u guys for ages too hope u are peeps are doing well gtg....

2005-12-27T10:15:00.000-08:00

Its time to let go and set free

Ok this holiday been 1 stayed at home the most of the time....i guess aj will be history for me...i m not optimistic for the 1st time in my life abt my life next year...i wanna get control academically .....I like the cold weather lately shiok man.... ive come up wif many decisions lately i guess which i hope will turn out good...

bye...

2005-12-15T08:55:00.000-08:00

Got really freaking depressed and freaking freaked out yesterday doing some online psychological test i ripped off somewhere....it proved to be quite accurate although i usually am quite skeptical it really kind of left me thinking.....Anyway i still need peace alone..i still haven decided weather i would be turning up for the christmas gatherings with the various ppl..i guess im not dat strong after all....i still cant get some things out of my head but im glad at least night strolls help me clear some thoughts....i got back to my sec sch after lunch yesterday..i haven actually stepped in 4 ages at least more den a year or 2... and i realise they still have the same bloody vball coach but the change is dat they are training indoors now in the hall, there were quite a significant no of players but anyway i dun associate myself with gms vball after quitting at the start of sec 3 with my entire batch, dats a bloody long time ago, jing hui and boon seng my 2 juniors were training hard, guess ivp is round the corner ...sweet memories filled me but i couldnt even rmb any bitter ones cos there wasnt den in my sec days...

Here something i wanna share ir u r feeling depressed or f *up brisk walking seriously helps cos it has actually been proven by psychologist or wateva.....

I jus so crappy tonight...lolx

2005-12-14T08:28:00.000-08:00

At this particular time you are feeling the results of extreme stress and you are seeking a 'way out' but you are pushing too hard. Obviously you need peace, tranquillity and contentment. Your temperament is such that you are hoping, unrealistically perhaps, that your desires will shortly be fulfilled (even if at this time you are not quite sure what those true aspirations may be!).

You are working extremely hard trying to improve your image in the eyes of others. You are looking for acknowledgement from your peers and those who come into your sphere of influence. You want to be liked, not for what people think of you but for what you really are.

You are a dreamer and you seek perfection in any relationship that you may establish. Some of your ideas and standards are over the top so it may be a good idea to review your perception of life and accept people for what they are - not for what you would like them to be.

You are feeling trapped by the situation as it stands at this time and what is more, you feel powerless to remedy it. You are stressful, angry and disgruntled. You feel that everything that you try to do to change the situation is thwarted and your hopes and aspirations all seem to be receding into the ever distant future. You have reached the state where you now doubt whether your dreams will ever be achieved and this is not only causing mental stress but heartache. You need to get away from it all - you need to have time to think, to recuperate, to be able to make your own decisions.

You wish to be left in peace... no more conflict and no more differences of opinion. In fact you just don't want to be involved in arguments of any shape or form. All you want is for 'them' to get on with it - and to leave you alone.

2005-12-08T17:23:00.000-08:00

Ok i finally woke up b4 11pm this holiday cos ive actually improve from 4pm to 830am today... anyway jus wished 1 of my best pals yh who is going to tekong today!!wohoo!! I simply cannot imagine how some my pals who are going to soldiers, my turn will come... I know a handful of you guys out there are to tekong this week gd luck guys!!...My brother has been telling me how scared the recruits are and all the stupid stories and how he deals with them.... goodness.. Dad finally recovered while ive been freaking down with cough and flu, but at least my mood has been better.....o and bon voyage to the aj vball guys have fun man!!..life goes on....

A&E

2005-12-01T21:31:00.000-08:00

A&E

Rushed my dad to NUH last night, he was supposed to be admited yesterday night but he just went home for observation but anyway when i got there i saw the most ironic thing, the indian fully dressed in green even with a green mask directing patients had a fractured arm and he was directing this little boy to the room who fractured his arm, wth.....dad was in pain and usually for cases that were not life threatening you can actually wait up to 1 to 2 hours but thankfully he was attended to shortly...O there was dis guy on the wheel chair covered with wounds all over his body his jeans were torn and there were cuts here and their, but he remained quite calm...Ok heres another guy who apparently got that pissed with the indian mentioned for not attending to his friend fast, he was like on the verge of beating the already injured poor man..i seriously dont know whether to laugh or cry, and another ironic thing is dat jus on the wall was article dat says man jailed 3 weeks for hitting doc....I think dads gonna be fine....all i want for christmas is simply things to run smoothly for the rest of the year and hopefully my break through next year....

I m hanging on .....

2005-11-29T06:56:00.000-08:00

2005-11-29T06:54:00.000-08:00

Tomato ketchup cheng yao brand

2005-11-29T06:43:00.000-08:00

My precious from 3805 ill miss u ppl

2005-11-27T07:54:00.000-08:00

Jus updatin....

Today has been really quite a tiring day cos ike last 2 weekends i worked at M1 paragon selling O2 phones so its quite cool cos ive been using the smartphones and PDAs and stuff but im jus owning dem for abt 3 weeks so maybe i jus go get 1 soon or somethin, but still i slacked alot takin ultra long breaks at cine and taka, lunched wif Alvin after today and yea basically lifes been simple trying to keep my mood monotonous,for wateva reason i turned down most outings and meetings , jus been tryin learn to chill out alone more often, next year us gonna tough but still i need to hang on, ironically alot of my super long lost frens as in its really had been appearing in my life and its really great to see them again marcus back frm Aussie in bmt met shihui today many more..maybe gods been tryin to makeit up for me..haha

Yesterday been a triring too i went down to play vball wif eusoff hall after work at abt 9 to 1130 and jogged back frm dere home cos it has been dunno since when i just didnt know wat came over me..the blues and greys jus hit me real bad got a little sentimental and decided jus to clear some thoughts, the very 1st buliding i passed was LT3 the faculty of arts and social sciences, ive decided this shall where i at least shld be in 3 years...i passed the central square and central lib , nus hall , pass nuh and by the time i hit Acjc i was rather tired but still i went on to Buona vista mrt to take a short rest...hit home pretty soon and felt gd..probably gonna visit nus to visit xiao chuan at Raffles hall or hit a few tennis balls wif the same pals like i always did in sec sch..i jus need some inspiration frm these ppl an motivaton , thx man......I ve been really enlightened by events in my life too many to speak of but i guess its positive yea dats abt it and i jus want to say i miss you and you and you and you but i can ony use 3 words to summurise abt life..IT GOES ON..

bye peeps .........

2005-11-18T08:51:00.000-08:00

Ill never forget

Words cant desrcribed how i feel tonite ...im just to touched by every1 i love 3805 so much i cant bear to leave but still i need to face it strong...i would like like to thank 3805 Mrs Ong Mr Loh Mr Seng Miss Yiak for chipping in the electric guitar chosen by Welyon and co as well as the scrape book compiled by Aileen thx so much.... i m really touched by it..thx god i din tear..lol, o oso for the pizzas at pizza hut...and hapi bday to Hanisah....I will never 4get , on our way to mrt we met 2804 who finished their their A levels today enjoy ppl, i know my day would come too...im really encouraged to noe i have such great frens whom i have known for less dan a year, not too long or short but our bond stays...i dunno wat else to say and i tink my insnomia shoud be just cured like dis....

2005-11-12T07:07:00.000-08:00

Crawling

crawling in my skin
these wounds they will not heal
fear is how I fall
confusing what is real

there's something inside me that pulls beneath the surface
consuming/confusing
this lack of self-control I fear is never ending
controlling/I can't seem

to find myself again
my walls are closing in
(without a sense of confidence and I'm convinced that there's just too much pressure to take)
I've felt this way before
so insecure

2005-11-02T08:11:00.000-08:00

It felt great to be sweating out at the mph again a place full of bittersweet memories...ill never forget....

[Chorus:]
Cause she's bittersweet
She knocks me off of my feet
And I can't help myself
I don't want anyone else
She's a mystery
She's too much for me
But I keep comin' back for more
She's just the girl I'm lookin' for

She can't keep a secret
For more than an hour
She runs on 100 proof attitude power
And the more she ignores me
The more I adore her
What can I do?
I'd do anything for her

Cause she's bittersweet
She knocks me off of my feet
And I can't help myself
I don't want anyone else
She's a mystery
She's too much for me
But I keep comin' back for more
She's just the girl I'm lookin' for

Hey mark ur suppose to sent me these songs....u haven ...

2005-10-28T08:33:00.000-07:00

Its been a ong time since i blogged and probably release this draft a little later cos currenly im just not ready till i feel better ...Things been really rough 1 disappointment after another, i setback after another, i duuno where ill be but ill never give up...Just wanna thank everyone who cared, i think im 1 super lucky guy who have so many great friends around me its my great honour and i will never forget you people and not forgetting my teachers and the others, theres simply too many ppl i wanna thank but i just wanna tell you ppl i value all the relationships and bonds we built....ill stay strong even when its really vv hard......

2005-10-15T09:32:00.000-07:00

Linkin PArk rox!!

Papercut

Why does it feel like night today?
Something in here’s not right today
Why am I so uptight today?
Paranoia’s all I got left
I don’t know what stressed me first
Or how the pressure was fed / but
I know just what it feels like
To have a voice in the back of my head
It’s like a face that I hold inside
A face that awakes when I close my eyes
A face watches every time I lie
A face that laughs every time I fall
(And watches everything)
So I know that when it’s time to sink or swim
That the face inside is hearing me / right beneath my skin
It’s like I’m / paranoid lookin’ over my back
It’s like a / whirlwind inside of my head
It’s like I / can’t stop what I’m hearing within
It’s like the face inside is right beneath my skin
I know I’ve got a face in me
points out all the mistakes to me
You’ve got a face on the inside too and
Your paranoia’s probably worse
I don’t know what set me off first but I know what I can’t stand
Everybody acts like the fact of the matter is
I can’t add up to what you can but
Everybody has a face that they hold inside
A face that awakes when they close their eyes
A face watches every time they lie
A face that laughs every time they fall
(And watches everything)
So you know that when it’s time to sink or swim
That the face inside is watching you too / right inside your skin
It’s like I’m / paranoid lookin’ over my back
It’s like a / whirlwind inside of my head
It’s like I / can’t stop what I’m hearing within
It’s like the face inside is right beneath my skin

It’s like I’m / paranoid lookin’ over my back
It’s like a / whirlwind inside of my head
It’s like I / can’t stop what I’m hearing within
It’s like the face inside is right beneath my skin

the face inside is right beneath my skin
the face inside is right beneath my skin
the face inside is right beneath my skin

The sun goes down
I feel the light betray me

The sun goes down
I feel the light betray me

The sun
It’s like I’m / paranoid lookin’ over my back
It’s like a / whirlwind inside of my head
It’s like I / can’t stop what I’m hearing within
It’s like the face inside is right beneath my skin
I feel the light betray me

The sun
It’s like I’m / paranoid lookin’ over my back
It’s like a / whirlwind inside of my head
It’s like I / can’t stop what I’m hearing within
I feel the light betray me
It’s like I / can’t stop what I’m hearing within
It’s like I / can’t stop what I’m hearing within

2005-10-15T08:53:00.000-07:00

Conterdrives loops blocks underspins chops hook!

The agonising wait continues and i can jus try to distract myself with some books, but it worked...

2005-10-14T08:53:00.000-07:00

The J2s have finally graduated and im gonna miss every1....Sch today was jus as aimless as the any other day this week crap..........jus hope next week wont be like this.......

The end of promos kind of marked the start of the new vball season but this time things just feel different, trainings on 135 starts next week...haiz...

i jus hate feeling depressed....gonna read or chill out...sigh!!

Things are unclear. Your instincts tell you to be cautious -- you should listen.

Overview:
It's time for you to emerge from your self-imposed quietude. You needed time to think things over, you've had it and you've used it well. You're officially ready to make an announcement. Just try to go gently on anyone who wasn't expecting it.

yup i nd time to think over alot of things........

2005-10-13T09:12:00.000-07:00

i spent yet another day rotting in sch......and mr seng jus refused to review any of our hist results even when he finished marking and he continued enjoying himself playin the devil like always grinning away...grrrrrrrrrr...........i know none of my bloody results , ok just got to cool down and take a deep breathe and continue this antagonising wait.... To make it worst Wk is fooling me online...

Good charlotte
[chorus:]
Is anybody listening?
Can they hear me when I call?
Shooting signals in the air
'Cause I need somebody's help
I can't make it on my own
So I'm givin' up myself
Is anybody listenin', listenin'?

I'm stuck in my own head and I'm oceans away
Would anybody notice if I chose to stay?
I'll send an S.O.S. tonight
And wonder if I will survive
How in the hell did I get so far away this time?
So now I'm sitting here
The time of my departure's near
I say a prayer please, someone save me

[chorus]

I'm lost here
I can't make it on my own
I don't wanna die alone
I'm so scared
Drowning now
Reaching out
Holding on to everything I know
Crying out
Dying now
Need some help

Is anybody listenin'?
Can they hear me when I call?
Shooting signals in the air
I need somebody's help
I can't make it on my own
I'm givin' up myself
Is anybody listenin'?

2005-10-11T09:27:00.000-07:00

Rechargable batteries in use

Currenty facing post promo syndrome so went for a jog to sort out stuff, it reay felt great afterwards...spent the day in sch watching scary movie 1 and 2 on the lap top wif some of the 38ters, it was damm funny and probaby gonna play games on it again tmr....

Been having this feeling of emptiness tin i mus really start my crazy fever of enjoying myself, going out shop for stuff , catching up wif frens esp those i have not mingled wif 4 a along time and all the shit so watch out yea...

2005-10-10T08:17:00.000-07:00

The 2nd token

Phew....promos is finally over but ironically i dun gave dat feeing of euphoria which i have been anticipating, instead im totally jaded thoroughly after playing soccer and watching the movie goal, the movie is seriously not bad and if you haven caught you might consider watching it...Promos over and i dun noe wat the hell i will be doing in sch tmr with no pw nor chinese....Its been 1 month since i blogged, how time flies..... O now the time the best time to sort out my screwed life think abt things i wanna do and stuff....O i jus wanna wish al the J2s all the best in their endeavours since they are graduating on fri...

2005-09-15T03:41:00.000-07:00

"Wake Me Up When September Ends"

Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
wake me up when september ends

like my fathers come to pass
seven years has gone so fast
wake me up when september ends

here comes the rain again
falling from the stars
drenched in my pain again
becoming who we are

as my memory rests
but never forgets what I lost
wake me up when september ends

summer has come and passed
the innocent can never last
wake me up when september ends

ring out the bells again
like we did when spring began
wake me up when september ends

here comes the rain again
falling from the stars
drenched in my pain again
becoming who we are

as my memory rests
but never forgets what I lost
wake me up when september ends

Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
wake me up when september ends

like my father's come to pass
twenty years has gone so fast
wake me up when september ends
wake me up when september ends
wake me up when september ends

2005-09-10T10:43:00.000-07:00

Osama bin laden

Its 911 today peeps....probably ill see many MIB at the airport when dad comes back from shanghai......I can still some how rmb v clearly seein wat happened to the twin towers on CNA, i was aying on the sofa at my jurong east hse and when i saw that wordings on the screen dat america was under attack the 1st thing dat came to my mind was dat the could be a third ww and i ended watching news the entire night...anyway im still quite anti-moron(bush) but not anti-US though i still are seriously losing their credibiity in the world...lets just hope for some peace esp there have been so many typhoons and disaters everywhere in the us china taiwan japan....

kind of crappy...haha

2005-09-10T01:43:00.000-07:00

The world is flat

ok probably today i shall do some decent blogging......ill try yea..
anyway today started or rather yesterday morning started me fuming into the LT 5 for histiry tutorial, im sure some of you guys probabaly heard my grumbing today all thanks to that idiotic taxi driver who took a super long route to school when im rushing 4 time, anyway ill shall not elaborate any further since its over....it was a rather fruitful tutorial today...

After which i went with some peeps on Mr lohs car for a lecture on the world is flat by Thomas Friedman at the LKY sch of public policy which was in a part of NUS i haven been b4 though i use to frequent nus for tennis is sec sch.....The lecture on globalisation somewhat gave me the perception of the doings of people at an individual level rather than the governments and companies that was setting the new trend, anyway i shall not regurgitate cant really be bothered..I probaby go read his books after the promos...

I have quite some thoughts on my mind today but just not in the mood to continue....
Anyway im not dat stressed as my taggers have been perceiving, thx peeps im generally fine..
promos in 3 weeks....

2005-09-07T10:23:00.000-07:00

This is my tt blade ....comin back soon
Its 4 freaking weeks to promos........dammm i just need that firm breathe of determination..sigh!!

and ironically im thinking of doing sports cos someone told me that when he feels more stress out he plays and trains even more..i was like wth......

2005-09-06T08:37:00.000-07:00

I need to brisk walk....

2005-09-05T07:43:00.000-07:00

PHEW!! Lecture from 8am to 4 pm was like rather tedious but still we managed to hold out.....someone pls pat my back....

Anyway i really hope nothing serious will befall fur after hes suspected of dengue, may god bless him man....Lets all pray he ill get well real soon..

you know that feeling you get
you feel your older than time
you ain't exactly sure
if you've been away a while

do you keep the reciepts
for the friends that you buy
and ain't it bittersweet
you're only just getting by

but i hope you know
that it wont let go
it sticks around with you until the day you die
and i hope you know
that it's touch and go
i hope the tears dont stain the world that waits outside
where did it all go wrong?

and until you've repaid
the dreams you've bought for your lies
you'll be cast away
alone under stormy skies
alone under stormy skies

2005-09-03T10:14:00.000-07:00

Its finally the end of a busy term but ironically i've been slacking a lot lately , been facing a restless fever , so much so dat i was even to lazy to go play tennis this morning with carl Lc and the rest despite not having done so for ages....

The end of the term oso marked the departure of Leong parn for greener pastures in london, take care yea...besides the last weeks of term 3 revived the use of Donic persson powerspeed and it feel great wielding it after like so long....

O to all the j2s who are stressing out with their prelims..gd luck to all!!i hope everyone and especially ppl like me will have a fruitful week ahead....

down...

2005-08-29T09:18:00.000-07:00

im down down down mentally and physically, but dat will just last for a while.....ill be crawling back with a firm breathe of determination....i need to feel being in control again....wait and ill show you wat i have got....

ignorance is bliss......

2005-08-24T18:02:00.000-07:00

Hmm.. been a long time since i blogged , feeling melancholnic the past week and lifes been really busy with tons of this and tons of that.......i got to buck up man cos i slightly lagging lately ....promos is like in 38 days and its either a make or a break.......

Im slipping away.....

mesmerized...

2005-08-09T05:41:00.000-07:00

As always Ajs celebration was all like 4 show and dat it existed....but i will not compare the experiences i had b4....But i kind of enjoyed the video which was surprisingly quite creative which tried to allow ppl to have another outlook on things and i kind of enjoyed it...After dat we had almost 3 hours of history lectures which almost killed me and i ended up dosing off in the last part and my notes became more blank after each page...

I truy look forward to every years NDP, not becos of anythin but becos of the fire works display...had a splendid view of fire works and just also enjoy the cool breeze bowing against my face...it was mesmerising...some things r just so shortlived wouldnt they last longer??haven been doin much ..dammm..ok ill go now...

Faint

2005-08-05T18:32:00.000-07:00

Promos really nearin..........

+a glimpse from behind off the corner of my eye , so near yet far away.....

this goes on and on and on.....

2005-08-03T02:51:00.000-07:00

Schools really becoming a routine, u go to sch in the morning and next thing u noe u r back again, been feein really lethargic in lessons really got to buck up be organised and strive for the final lap...i need energy and lots of dem....i jus need to stop myself from procrastinating, its realy a fatal flaw.... been too lazy blogging and jus in case u r wondering wats been goin on probably more non-routine would be 38s bbq....im too lazy to type so i copied d happenings from leens blog...

actual party starts at 6+. e fire was quite badly set up.. maybe coz of e charcoals ba.. we play cards, tok, chat, blahs blahs.. e fun thigny came when we played with e foam thignys.... haha! too bad for cheng yao who always bullys us. now is our turn to get back~! weew hoo!! =D (BIG SMILE ACROSS MY FACE) in e end we all got wet.. thanks to mark who tried to get back at us by playing with h2o. hehess.. orh, miang baked leong parn 2 cheese cakes! nice nice nice'!! haha, next time mus teach me how to bake.... quite alot of em left at 10. while apek, desley, cheng yao,miang, wenxin, lao lai n mat stayed over lo. we went to e fitness corner n started to play guitar n sing. hmph.. not bad.. quite fun`! orhs.. we play truths (no dare) den knew quite abit of secrets bot us.. cheng yao say that he once got................. haha! of coz i cant say la stupid. entralled by des's wushu stunts. tee heeaz. we went home at bot 1.30am. was so hungry!! hehes. n we decided to grill our leftover chickens for supper. super delicious`>!! hehe.s.. orh ya! lao lai this guy ah.. i think he has a liking for guys for very long already. anyone seen e pic he took with des? hees.s. abit gayish loh. yeah really abit only. den when we were going to zZz, cy wanted e bed to himself, but lao lai keep squeezing in n insist that they should share. finally, he kana kicked out from e bed, he lugged 4 chairs, form n line, n slept on e chair. no, tt's not e end. in e morning when he woke up, he went to e bed n wanted to share it again.... heheaz>~! lao lai ah... lao lai~!!!

The running tap.........

2005-07-27T02:19:00.000-07:00

The fingers on my left hand still feel quite numb after the blood donation today and my blood flowed really fast and i even when i was bandaged those who started earlier still had needles on dem...o the sight of the needle resembled a price tag on a piece of pork when the nurse pulled it out of me....There was this ger beside me hu had a really hard time gettin out of her dat two nurses were needed to supervise...blood was like leakin out onto her wound and cotton wool and still little was comin out, poor thing... Most of the vball male team donated blood and wai meng was rejected leavin me alone while the rest did it much earlier..sigh!!

Another end...

2005-07-25T00:17:00.000-07:00

Ok heres 1 entry which i promised Lirong to make cos i tink ive been to lazy to update...Today was the last day of the inter hse games and after hard fought battles jaguar hse emerged champs for soccer ....yeah man!! But i wonder when will be the next time i play an official game of soccer or anythin with the J2s, i really treasure the brotherly bond we share thx ppl anyway me and mark rushed down to J8 to celebrate siew pengs b day..yea happy bday took many photos but i was feelin really tired but still enjoyed myself.....Once again hapi b day to siew..

Those were the days....

2005-07-15T08:10:00.000-07:00

Today was quite a sporty day in sch, played a bit of badminton and headed to BK 4 dinner atHolland village and coincidentally met henky standley Royo....i guess every1 is still doin fine and i was updated on life in np, guess its good...we started reminiscing about our life in sec sch back where our days were always filled with fun and i realise dat every1 is jus as crappy like they have always been haha...we rock man!! Edison came later and i was stuck in Bk 4 2.5 hours crapping and soon was really laughing eill i almost lost my breathe...ironically i met Gwen too who was having tuition in BK , kind of wierd but yea haven seen her 4 a long time , she was also quite surprise to see me....o nic if u are seein this in the US jus wanna tell ur darling Gwen is still in 1 piece busyin preparin 4 her As, take care man!!

arrrrrrr........

2005-07-13T05:50:00.000-07:00

Played soccer today and my groin is really hurting even though i did some stretching, and i dun seem to be able to play vball after a soccer game , the feelin is wierd....

verbal diarrhoea

2005-07-12T05:26:00.000-07:00

suffered from verbal diarrhoea today dats wat the 38 ppl tells me today, probably a way of relieving stress i guess and it all started wif morning pe screwed up a econs presentation dough i still manange to put dat idea across haha...... i realise u dun have to get high on water but on air too...workload is seriously piling....gt to go get somethin done real soon...

phew!!

2005-07-11T02:22:00.000-07:00

o today i was suppose to represent aj 4 high jump 4 nationals track...luckily i escaped cos ill probably trip over the pole and land right straight on my face....hahah..speakin of sports im really tempted pick up the tennis racket again after watching the wimbedons miss playin tennis but all my tennis kakees ,carl kent LC Jx and all de rest seem to have gone missin ......

alphabets

2005-07-11T02:19:00.000-07:00

The following grades dicipher ur mid year results

A=aiya(im doomed)
B=buang
C=crap
D=disgusting
E=excellent
O=outstanding
F=FANTISTIC!!

ok jus feelin crappy and i 4got wat i wanted to blog which is actually some crap from qx which i found was makin sense......

shagged...

2005-07-08T07:38:00.000-07:00

drained but feel so gd playin soccer on the green field breathing in cool air....found out in stress management i belong to the influence grp during mass civics if u noe wat i mean...and finally......

haix

2005-07-07T07:34:00.000-07:00

just wanna sigh!! and sigh and sigh!!

hapi b day

2005-07-03T02:42:00.000-07:00

went to celebrate boons b day played pool and archade and stuff reached home 1130 to catch federrer play Roddick in the wimbedon open and had to fix my damm comp dat is really screwin up yht mouse goin haywire......man i m still coughin away...life really sux when u got a really bad cough and it seems like many ppl around me r sic..get well soon every1

YELLOWCARD LYRICS - Only One

2005-07-02T10:17:00.000-07:00

YELLOWCARD LYRICS - Only One


found my yellowcard cd its great lisitening to dis great songs again...



Broken this fragile thing now
And I can't, I can't pick up the pieces
And I've thrown my words all around
But I can't, I can't give you a reason

I feel so broken up (so broken up)
And I give up (I give up)
I just want to tell you so you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one that gets me like you do
You are my only, my only one

Made my mistakes, let you down
And I can't, I can't hold on for too long
Ran my whole life in the ground
And I can't, I can't get up when you're gone

And something's breaking up (breaking up)
I feel like giving up (like giving up)
I won't walk out until you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one who gets me like you do
You are my only my only one

Here I go so dishonestly
Leave a note for you my only one
And I know you can see right through me
So let me go and you will find someone

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one, no one like you
You are my only, my only one
My only one
My only one
My only one
You are my only, my only one

over...

2005-07-01T09:58:00.000-07:00

cts over and i ve spending my time on my electric guitar cos i haven been touchin it 4 a long time, been learnin songs were linkin park and its quite cool,,,went out with 3805(3mths) and got really high by water at crystal jade and created fools in name of rj lol in presence of a fellow rafflesian lol...

been tokin lesser these days probbaly the post exam blues and haven been workin out...

here i come recharging

life sux when u got a cough

2005-06-30T09:14:00.000-07:00

cough cough cough......my flu is recovering but my lungs are killin me...thry are as weak as ever....exams over .....and finally 3805(1st 3 mths) is finally meetin again tmr......

ahhh.....panic

2005-06-21T09:54:00.000-07:00

my biological timing is screwed big time and the exams are freaking near..holis over soon....

yea

2005-06-20T11:30:00.000-07:00

today is the day i studied the most ever since the holis started...so dats a consolation 4 me...did econs ....met joanne at the cafe gailee and ben later at WRL, there were many ajcians today and mny jc students tink every1s muggin while i m slackin so much.......exams startin in a weeks time ....hapi mugging every1...

O had a funny encounter wif a funny ger ecounter online...wk frens i tink, wth ...gonna work hard i hope....

grrr.......

2005-06-17T08:43:00.000-07:00

went WRL and met nancy and jos , haven seen dem 4 quite some time cos i couldnt make it for the 04s13 outings the last few times studied with them all things couldnt really go in my head, o i saw yawen from 38 again.... had a hair cut and came home with mum stressing me out again!! damm.....

energy depletion

2005-06-16T09:50:00.000-07:00

i losing my energetic self and wonder when ill recharge...anyway the days have been quite boring but ironically wateva i step out of my house isee familiar faces everywhere anytime...its gettin a bit freaky...and take today for example met the two np vballers at 12pm and were on the way to sch..and when i reach the lib i realise i noe almost every1 in the same section of 4 tables...the pj ppl ny ppl and alvin..and later somemore....i guess singapore is really damm small.....

by myself

2005-06-15T09:35:00.000-07:00

If I turn my back I'm defenseless And to go blindly seems senseless If I hide my pride and let it all go on Then they'll take from me'till everything is gone If I let them go I'll be outdone But if I try to catch them I'll be outrun If I'm killed by the questions like a cancer Then I'll be buried in the silence of the answer ..........been listening to linkin park again..

i really and truly appreciate nice ppl around.....

2005-06-11T09:18:00.000-07:00

went to chuas hse to for his sons 1 month old celebration, played majong and 24 pts which caused to drink a bit jus like when i was in china wif the vballers, turned a bit red and luk a bit stupid n the mirror....

i dropped my phone on 165 <> but got it back frm a super nice guy after meetin up wif him at clementi.....his name is chinning and apparently hes back 4 holidays frm his overseas university....i thank him a million times and his gf was like smiling non stop at me cos i was quite like sweating quite a bit,thank him a million times....phew it was a relief but dere are really nice ppl around man!!

sinkin

2005-06-10T11:05:00.000-07:00

drowning in blues and greys...